Emotional construct of musicianship
The talent that is embedded in a musician is something hard to comprehend. When I say musician, I mean someone who lives, breathes, eats and even pee pee's music. People that we like to listen to, someone that helps us go to another place 'cuz the place we're at right now is not the place we want to be. The person we listen to was just like us at one stage, but somehow they found a way to go to this place whenever they wanted. Its a gift, its so unique. The rest of us have to dwell in our little world and try to imagine what their place is like when they sing their song to us. How do they do it?
I'm not a musician, im a n00b that plays guitar and has a good run every now and then. But when I do have a good run, I get *very* emotional at times. Then I hear utensils fall in the background or the TV volume rise from the other room, maybe an argument will break out or i'll get an SMS saying "Hey, welcome back to reality". I'm a very comfortably insecure person, I am aware of my vulnerability but I put it to good use whenever I can. It also has its bad habits, because it tends to put me in my place when I feel even the slightest form of hesitation. My last post was about a YES man, and how it evolves into a person not being able to commit something of their own intention. I don't want to grow into a person like that, its scary.
The point of this post is to salute everyone and everything that is music because it makes me happy. It's a drug that spreads through your body so quickly you didn't even feel the injection. It starts with a tingle in your backbone, then the next time you blink you think its the first time you're actually seeing.....sorta like The Matrix. Its also about how lost I am as a young adult searching for an answer or a calling of some sort. I need to make a decision quickly so I can start living my life as how I should be. I feel like i'm still playing it too safe, and that i've been telling myself to become this "someone" I want to be later rather than sooner. Its painful and the time its taking to take the next step is staying constant. Do I want to wear a suit? or do I want to wear a guitar?
Richard Mercer sounds great with a sub woofer...
I'm not a musician, im a n00b that plays guitar and has a good run every now and then. But when I do have a good run, I get *very* emotional at times. Then I hear utensils fall in the background or the TV volume rise from the other room, maybe an argument will break out or i'll get an SMS saying "Hey, welcome back to reality". I'm a very comfortably insecure person, I am aware of my vulnerability but I put it to good use whenever I can. It also has its bad habits, because it tends to put me in my place when I feel even the slightest form of hesitation. My last post was about a YES man, and how it evolves into a person not being able to commit something of their own intention. I don't want to grow into a person like that, its scary.
The point of this post is to salute everyone and everything that is music because it makes me happy. It's a drug that spreads through your body so quickly you didn't even feel the injection. It starts with a tingle in your backbone, then the next time you blink you think its the first time you're actually seeing.....sorta like The Matrix. Its also about how lost I am as a young adult searching for an answer or a calling of some sort. I need to make a decision quickly so I can start living my life as how I should be. I feel like i'm still playing it too safe, and that i've been telling myself to become this "someone" I want to be later rather than sooner. Its painful and the time its taking to take the next step is staying constant. Do I want to wear a suit? or do I want to wear a guitar?
Richard Mercer sounds great with a sub woofer...
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