The Yes Man
I hate to admit it, but I think i've become a "yes" man. I hardly say no to anything, I have this succumbing aura that attracts people to ask me questions or favours in which they know the answer, which is "yes" or "yeh sure man, no worries". Its sickening, because it brings a mentality of never being able to move forward with any decision that you make on your own. Its even worse than saying no. Alot worse.
Anyway, i've been stressing out. I feel like my eyes are about to pop out and two mouths will appear from my eyes, then I will scream with all three mouths in unison, possibly screaming in different keys to invoke a rich harmony. I feel like no matter what I do right now, regardless of how productive it is, the list of "to do's" are actually building up exponentially faster than what I can handle. It's like taking steps in quicksand. I also left my guitars and stuff at my friend's house, so I have no way to deal with it than to type it out.
Uni has been good, my friends are making it alot more fun than it should be. Every second of every minute I'm telling myself "Don't worry, this is your last semester, it will all be over soon", even though i'm sure ill miss it, but probably not for long since I may have to continue further studies for career's sake. I feel right now the only thing letting me down is my confidence. That whole rant about being a "Yes" person tends to apply when im being ordered to do something. My own decisions tend to be textbook answers rather than what I feel is morally right. I feel like my judgements are far too open minded, like I don't want to offend anyone, which is never possible. Its now become a habit, where im almost losing my opinions because I accept everything around me so light heartedly. It sounds all happy happy joy joy, but its not trust me. Who knows, I might crack one day and say "I hate Nigerians, they click too much when they talk darghh just talk normally or get a pencil and write it down, but they cant 'cuz the only freakin pencil they had is through their nose which they use against other nigerians with pencils through their nose and have pencil fighting competitions while balancing their body on a tiny length of rope like they do in Nigerian Gladiator"
I cant wait till about the end of next month, all my major assignments will be done and I can chill out. I really wanna toke up again with some friends, or at least get pissed. But at the moment, what i'm craving most of all, is making some good music.
*click*
Anyway, i've been stressing out. I feel like my eyes are about to pop out and two mouths will appear from my eyes, then I will scream with all three mouths in unison, possibly screaming in different keys to invoke a rich harmony. I feel like no matter what I do right now, regardless of how productive it is, the list of "to do's" are actually building up exponentially faster than what I can handle. It's like taking steps in quicksand. I also left my guitars and stuff at my friend's house, so I have no way to deal with it than to type it out.
Uni has been good, my friends are making it alot more fun than it should be. Every second of every minute I'm telling myself "Don't worry, this is your last semester, it will all be over soon", even though i'm sure ill miss it, but probably not for long since I may have to continue further studies for career's sake. I feel right now the only thing letting me down is my confidence. That whole rant about being a "Yes" person tends to apply when im being ordered to do something. My own decisions tend to be textbook answers rather than what I feel is morally right. I feel like my judgements are far too open minded, like I don't want to offend anyone, which is never possible. Its now become a habit, where im almost losing my opinions because I accept everything around me so light heartedly. It sounds all happy happy joy joy, but its not trust me. Who knows, I might crack one day and say "I hate Nigerians, they click too much when they talk darghh just talk normally or get a pencil and write it down, but they cant 'cuz the only freakin pencil they had is through their nose which they use against other nigerians with pencils through their nose and have pencil fighting competitions while balancing their body on a tiny length of rope like they do in Nigerian Gladiator"
I cant wait till about the end of next month, all my major assignments will be done and I can chill out. I really wanna toke up again with some friends, or at least get pissed. But at the moment, what i'm craving most of all, is making some good music.
*click*
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